The title pretty much covers it. I thought we were making lots of progress. When the pediatrician told me this morning to plan on another week I broke down. I don't know how I can keep doing this. I haven't seen and won't see my girls for days. Kenzie thinks I am making Ryker up. Haylee just knows that she misses me. I miss them like crazy. I am not sure what day it is most days.
In these moments I need the strength of all your prayers as well as the ones I know are being said for Ryker. I try not to have doubts. I know this is a trial i must face and learn and grow from. I will try not to ever begrudge anybody a healthy baby, and I will have complete empathy for anyone who has to face similar trials to what we have been through with 3 babies in the NICU. One day is one day too many. Weeks and months are an eternity.
I am sorry for the down in the dumps post. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
When they say days they really mean weeks.
Posted by Amanda at 9:09 AM
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Amanda, I am always thinking of you and the difficult time this must be for you. Let me help you, I don't mind. Love ya Tosha
Hang in there! We love you and you guys are in our thoughts and prayers.
Amanda: It's really hard, but just take one day at a time. Put one foot in front of the other, and keep going. It won't last forever, even though it feels like it right now.
You and Ryker are in our thoughts and prayers. If you need to be closer to the hospital, you're welcome to stay at our house. Call me if you want to do that ... your mom has my number.
Hi there. It is a difficult time for you. And I know that you have absolute faith in the promise of blessings. Please think first of the "PATIENT", he needs to feel your calm patience and willingness to do whatever it takes to see him through. Make his time the priority - let the minutes, hours and days pass and be submissive to the care he is receiving. He needs to heal. This time is but a fraction of the years you have ahead with him at home. Keep doing your new routine with your family. Be kind to those who love you most and pray constantly for the welfare of your family especially Ryker. The Lord will hear you and bless you accordingly. Humbly call those blessings down. We send our love and prayers to you, Ryker and your family. Love you all lots, The Billy's
oh amanda, i'm SO sorry! I told Brody the other day that I really can't imagine how hard this must be!!! i am keeping you in my prayers and hope that he improves quickly!!!
I am sorry Amanda. I can tell you are very frustrated. I cant imagine how hard this must me for you and Dustin. Hang in there. Maybe it would be good for you to stay home for a day and do something with the girls. Pump and let the nurses give him it in a bottle. Take some time for you and the girls. He is being so well taken care of up there-we will keep praying for him and your family. Let me watch the girls!Take care!
I am so sorry that you are having to go through this again-it certainly reminds me of what a blessing it is to have a healthy baby you get to bring home right away from the hospital. Your family is constantly in my prayers. I hope the time Ryker has to remain in the NICU will pass quickly for you both. And don't beat yourself up for being frustrated and sad-I can't even imagine what it must be like to be going through what you are.
I love two scriptures in Isaiah - Isaiah 53:3-4 and Isaiah 61:3. They remind me when I am going through something I am not sure if I have the strength to bear that our Savior is acquainted with our grief, that he will bless us, and that he can give us the peace and strength we need personally to get through the trails that are before us.
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